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i know none of this makes any sense i just wanted to write down my feelings somewhere. idk why im posting this lolWritten on 08/25/2026 * Posted on 08/25/2026
I'm officially seventeen today. I dont feel any different, am i supposed to feel different? Idk.
Everything's the exact same except my mom wont stop talking about college and about how she doesnt want me to grow up and that she's gonna move with me to wherever i end up going (no matter how much i tell her not to..) Honestly it doesnt even really feel like my birthday. How could it? I'm spending my 17th birthday in an unfamiliar place, without my dog because he fucking DIED 5 days ago.
Its been a terrible week, so my 17th birthday will be spent doing nothing but sulking while i say thank you every 15 minutes to another person wishing me "happy birthday!"
It's been long enough for me to recognize that there is no light at the end of the tunnel for me, and that my 18th birthday will most likely be the same as this one. A pathetic affair, where i stuff my face with food and cry about nothing at all, and after that i'll probably die because god knows im not worthy or capable of being an adult.
My best friend sent me a lavender scented bear plushie, which will be the first plushie I've received since my dad threw away my entire collection. I will carry that thing until I die.
obligatory statement thanking reader for reading. (ᵕ —﹏—)